-c ★ n n y-

love me, love me, say that you love me.

2010-11-06T01:26:00.000-07:00

its not just a feeling.

LOVE is the butterflies you get when you see his face.

LOVE is the smile you cant get rid of when you think of him.

LOVE is when you cant get him out of your head.

LOVE is when you keep reading that text message over and over.

LOVE is when you cab be yourself ; when you can tell the truth.

LOVE is when you feel like nothing can get better. but it does.

LOVE is the way i felt about him.

LOVE is the way i still do feel about him.

LOVE was everything i knew, that i dont now.

LOVE is when i had him.

blah blah blah (:

2010-11-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

Instructions:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

1）IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

GET BACK !! (makes sense wei)

2）WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

evacuate the dance floor O.o?

3）HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

boys and girls. ( im half gay? )

4）WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

two worlds collide

5）HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

beautiful :) haha.

6）WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

the reason? bluek.

7）WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT! wohoooo.

8）WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

naturally.

9）WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

hot and cold. (i guess i change my mind like a girl changes clothes)

10）WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

seven things. ( one of them is HIM. :D )

11）WHAT IS 2 + 2?

everything im not. haha. i guess im not 4.

12）WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BEST FRIEND?

eenie meenie. haha. he is. in a puny way.

13）WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

GIRLFRIEND. haha. true, indirectly :p

13）WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

freak out.

14）WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

telephone. == you're kidding me

15）WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

fall to pieces

16）WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?

someone wake me up.

17）WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

piece of me. HAHAHAHAHA!! yeah, you want a piece of me? huh!!

18）WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??

sweet dreams ??

19）WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

when it all falls apart

20)WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

who knows. wakakaka.

21)WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

everything back but you. LOL.

22)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

cant be tamed. TRUE WEI (:

23)WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

whatever you like ?

24)WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

keep holding on.

25)WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

umbrella. yeah, im so laughing now XD

26)WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

Party In The USA. ( parties make me cry? == )

27)WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

REPLAY ?

28)WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

run dont walk. apparently, running scares me ==

29)DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

FOREVER & ALWAYS. awwww :D

30)IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

stay my baby.

31)WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

revenge is sweeter (than you ever were )

32)WHAT WOULD YOU WANT TO SAY TO THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU?

how do you sleep? XD

33)WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS NOTE?

blah blah blah. KE$HA ROCKS! haha.

..under the firework lit sky.

2010-11-04T09:34:00.001-07:00

today was one of those days that keep me alive. i had this deepavali thing at my house. i spent like the whole day cleaning my room (smtg i HATE to do). and i when i was done, that big grin that i hate so much appeared on my face. i was HAPPY (:

so people started coming at like 5.30 ish. we hanged around the porch area till more people came along. ate. then, we went up to my room. GOSH, my cupboard was totally raided! we tried on EVERYTHING (: i took out my old gothic stuff i never touched since i was like 12?! damn, it was awesome. i cranked up the stereo. we listened to avril lavigne, my idol :) and when innocence came on, DAMN! we switched off all the lights and sang at the top of our lungs. we took out our phones and started waving it in our hands, from side to side. it was AWESOME! (;

later, we went across the road, to an open field. we lit the sky with fireworks. they looked like shooting stars (: we played like we were five again. and when we were tired, i ran across and got my guitar. i played my song, black hole. and the best part was everyone sand along. it felt awesome. we sang under the firework lit sky until keetha brought in a cockroach. AND IT WAS ALIVE. haha, the screaming was awesome! and all those fireworks gone wrong ; when they explode on the ground and shocks everyone. haha.

days like these wont be forgotten. like ever. i feel so inspired. i think imma write a song. about today. LOL. as some people say, im the malaysian taylor swift? ==

i dance to the beat of your heart.

2010-11-01T21:07:00.000-07:00

how is it that,

even though i hate you..

and even though we're over..

you still make me feel special?

and you still make my day?

the only thing worse that life,

is LOVE.

*sigh*

and thats why we're awesome =)

2010-10-31T23:39:00.001-07:00

okay, so this is a blog, rite? im suppose to blog here, rite? eeeesh! i knew i should have stuck to blogger. anyway, i just realized how awesome my class is :) last Saturday was our class party. we had it at pyramid. YEY! yen huei said to be thr at sharp 10.30 or she’ll kick our ***es. so i was thr at exactly 10.29! haha.

anyway, we watched a movie to start things off. it was epic bcuz we filled up like one and a half rows. and GOSH! they were these group of idiots. and OMG they were friggin noisy. and yes, i know its a funny movie, but u dont have to laugh like retarded monkeys that just keluar from some mental hospital.

had lunch at Hartz Chicken Buffet after that. i found it such a waste cuz u pay RM 20 bucks and you only eat one plate == and they didnt even have coke? KFC would have been better wei. we walked around abit. and settled down at some pool place.

CONCLUSION: sing joo should NEVER play pool. like NEVER. kah wai is just too pro :O cheng yi has a shot at M’sia’s next top model. Park would be her photographer if she ever became one. Jass’s contacts are super cute :) pui yeng is a MAFIA. lee yen is one sad kid. kok onn is a son of a bitch :) and claba.. i have nothing to say.

in general, it was an awesome day :)

10 things i wanna do before i die ~

2010-10-27T01:08:00.000-07:00

1. dye my hair red (:

2. get a crib in New York City.

3. get a record deal with SONY music.

4. ~~kiss under the rain. muax!~~ / dance with "him" under the rain ♥

5. watch the sunset on the beach, with the person i love ♥

6. see the magic of an aurora

7. drive a LOTUS !!

8. ~~go for a tokio hotel concert!~~ / meet tom kaulitz in person

9. climb the eiffel tower :)

10. sleep under the stars, knowing he'll be there with me ♥

you're heart's like a black hole.. you sucked up all my love..

2010-10-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

it hurts to know that he loves you

but he has to pretend he doesnt cuz he cant.

he loved me,

and then left me..

before he could hear my heart beat.

i never could express how i felt for him.

im not good with words.

i wrote him a song

to say everything my heart has been dying to say..

but he left before i got the chance to sing it for him.

he'll never know how he makes me feel.

he'll never know how i feel about him.

he'll never feel me.

love is too good to be true.

smile for me.

2010-10-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

someone once told me,

when you make a choice,

do it without any regrets.

dont turn around and think of what could have been.

you may hurt people,

you may fall along the way.

pick yourself up..

..and keep moving on.

never look back.

thats life :)

~ step to the beat of my heart ♥

2010-10-11T03:34:00.000-07:00

LEMME HEAR YOU SCREAM, BABEH!

cuz PMR is officially OVER :)

now, imma party like its the end of the world.

and "study" is the one word i DONT know ;)

theres only two types of people in the world ; ones that entertain, and ones that observe.

2010-10-07T23:04:00.000-07:00

WELCOME!

the tree huggers invite you into my site!

heeee...!!

PMR stress..

we go so far...

...till we hug trees.

ANYWAY,

COME ON IN :)

*STOP*

before you go in any further,

you must be warned..

there is a creature on the loose.

it goes by the name..

..deMOKozid-PUIness!

the dangerous mafia deMOKozoid-PUIness at work!

O.O

TOO DEADLY TO WATCH!

ONLY ONE WAY TO COME IN..

..YOU GOTTA ENTER THROUGH THE HOLE!

so, watch you're step!

the barney kid wannabe welcomes you

with her lala pose :)

have you met the queen of the playground?

on her rusty metal castle of glory!

*SHINES*

SAFETY PRECAUTION:

when climbing up the castle of rusty metal,

do keep a look out for

deMOKozoid-PUIness!

it usually attacks when you're distracted!

LEAVING SO SOON?

on your way out, dont forget to check out our latest attraction!

its called a swing!

it makes you feel like you're flying!

only 10 bucks a ride :)

THANKS FOR VISITING OUR TRG THEME PARK!

do come again

could we fix you if you broke?

2010-09-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

eeeesh!

i got nothing to update about!

im just purely BORED!

have been studying my ass off for the pass month.

and. and. and.

i dunno what else to say.

==...==

i feel boring.

hmmm...

ooo.. oooo... OOOOOO..!!

i gotta new hair cut! :)

and yeah thats kindda it.

but in telling you, after PMR!

awesomeness shall happen ;)

just gonna stand there and hear me cry.. but thats alright because i love the way you lie..

2010-09-03T05:29:00.000-07:00

some people seriously dont know when to shut their mouth.
bloody chicken dont even dare to put his own name here,
but can talk so much..
you seriously pissing me off.
did i even do anything to you?
you're honestly lifeless la..
you think you damn great la..
cant even put your name here,
wanna fuck up my cbox some more.
THATS THE MEANING OF PURE STUPIDITY.
fuck off la bitch..

next time... there wont be a next time.

2010-08-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

i was trapped in my own misery..
but now im drowning in yours.
i feel bad.
you're not the only hurt one here.
you dont know what i had to go through.
there is a reason for all this..
..but you're too broken to hear it.
HE left me hanging on the 12th of November 2009.
i was broken.
you're going through what i did.
but im not HIM.
im not gonna leave you hanging.
listen to me..
im sowie.
one day,
you'll find a girl who'll love you just as much as you love her.
you'll find her.
but just not in me.
remember;
when one door closes,
two doors open.
take care.

010510 - 270910
:')

you're the best thing that's ever been mine ♥

2010-08-18T03:16:00.000-07:00

i think i like you.
like A LOT.
maybe more than like.
could even be love.
yeah.
i think i love you.
no, i dont think so.
i know so.
i love you.
and your the only thing on my mind.
♥

-TheDarkSideOfTheSun-

2010-08-16T01:04:00.000-07:00

okay okay.
so everybody LOVES bill kaulitz from tokio hotel to bits.
but. but. but.
HE'S SO GAY
D:

i mean,
i was in love with him too..
UNTIL i saw him live.
he's like anorexic.

then another member caught my eye.
so.. owh.. owhh..
:)

bill's twin brother, tom kaulitz ♥

he is like the lead guitarist.
HOT.
plus, he has sexy hair.
heeeeee :D

maybe i've fallen head over heels for him because
HE IS GERMAN ♥
and he kindda looks like this dude i used to have a crush on.
either way, hes SMOKIN' HAWT.

he is like my new edward cullen.
he may not be a vampire,
but he plays guitar like GOD (:

he's my hero.

♥

~ you are the music in me ♥

2010-08-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

if im the guitar,
then friends are like guitar strings..
they have their own sound..
..but they sound great together :)
sometimes they get loose..
..but if u tune them just rite..
they'll sound even better.

back to me..
im the guitar.
i look electric,
but i sound classical,
and my attitude's a sassy acoustic..
how i sound?
its up to ME (;

boys..
are guitar picks..
they make you sound great..
they build up your confidence.
but they come and go.
when another one catches your eye,
you buy em..
..and throw the old one away..

UNTIL

you find the right one.
that makes you sound awesome..
..that you're comfortable with.
others may come up,
but they just cant beat that ONE :p

frets are like chapters
everyday is a different sound.
if C# is dull and boring,
D is gonna sound better :)

you just gotta adjust your fingers till they sound perfect

LIFE is an avril lavigne album..
sometimes it sounds like "complicated"..
other's a "i always get want i want"..
but sometimes, you gotta get "over it"..

no matter how it sounds,
life is only what you want it to sound like :)
so put down the earphones
and crank up the amplifier, babe (;
cuz every strum is a different story..
..pluck every string carefully.
the rhythm lies in your fingers
so play your heart out..
..cuz you never know when you just might break a string

in your shadow, i can shine =]

2010-08-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

just as i promised
i wrote you a song.
its finally complete.
after PMR,
i'll come over with my guitar..
..and play it for you LIVE.
i hope you like it.

BLACK HOLE
RELEASED: 060810

MY HEART IS MISSING A BEAT

2010-07-26T02:06:00.000-07:00

every problem that comes into my life..

every frown that appears on my face..
every tear that falls down these eyes..
they all happen for a reason..
and there is meaning to every bit of emoness i feel in me..
i promised myself i wouldn't be like this..
...that emo was a thing of the past
a phase in my life that i gladly overcame.
but i guess its haunting me.

every time my face wrinkles up, and a smile is shown..
every little part of me that still believes..
every bit of faith i have in me..
you know its because of you.
because only you have the power to make my misery disappear.
my guitar doesn't mean anything anymore..
it's all YOU.

when i left you,
when i gave up my hopes and feelings for someone else..
..someone who deserves to smile more than i do..
..someone who's happiness means more than mine,
i gave up the only thing in the world that could calm me down..
..i gave up my guitar
because you are the reason i play..
you are the reason i write..
you are the reason i sing..
not to make me feel better,
but because you tell me to every time im down.
because you feel the same magic i do when i play the guitar..
because you have your violin..
because you know how much music means to me..
whats anything if i don't have you?

the smiles you see on my face..
..they're plastic.
but when i truly smile,
deep down from my heart..
it may be rare...
...but it's pure
because the reason i do it is
YOU

you're my guitar pick..
..without you, how could i ever play?

question mark.

2010-07-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

because you deserve to smile more than i do..
because your happiness means more than mine..
but you'll never understand.

find yourself, cuz i cant find you.. be yourself, who are you??

2010-07-24T03:15:00.000-07:00

okay..
"hi...."
im like desperate to find out who you are..
so i'll start guessing..
even if it means reveling every guy i ever had a crush on :-S
GOSH!
*gulp*

1. vittal tharmalingam.
2. darshnan kumar.
3. surinthan ramakrishnan
4. cyril rajendera
5. rudravan
6. sanjay singh.
7. jovinder singh khaira
8. paul aaron
9. sumandran manogaran
10. eeswarren
11. jeshantaran
12. yashvinkumar sugumaran
13. sasi taran
14. nazrin shah

i think thats about it..
so, which number are you??
O.o

i used to be a player, i used to be a heart breaker.. until you walked into my life, baby ♥

2010-07-22T05:38:00.000-07:00

because you make me smile..
because you wipe those tears off my face..
because you care for me..
because you trust me..
because you sing to me..
because you dance with me..
because you cant live without me..
because you kill me with your love..
because you mean the world to me..
because you believed in me..
ima right you a song that'll take your heart away..
you'll see.

when im kissing you, my senses come alive ♥

2010-07-19T01:45:00.000-07:00

-YOU'RE DEAD SWEET-

if you were a lollipop...
...i'd lick you all day.

if you were cotton candy...
...i'd never share you.

if you were candy...
...i'd have a toothache by now.

if you were ice-cream...
...you'd be my favorite flavour.

if you were chocolate...
...you'd taste like heaven.

"...because you deserve much more"

2010-07-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

ohmigosh!
just when i tot my birthday sucked..
i found out about sing joo's birthday..
half of them forgot mine..
hardly anyone remember hers..
i didnt get my party with my fwens..
she didnt even get to cut a cake!!
damn..
i feel so bad for her!!
and here i've been a whiny lil brat..
and she didnt even complain..

sing joo,
i know you're not one of my BEST fwens..
and i kindda hated you.. A LOT.
but, im gonna remake your birthday!
cuz no one deserves a sucky one like that.
monday, you'll get a cake!
it may not be ohmigosh drop dead awesome,
but i hope you like it!!
you'll see!!
it wont be the best birthday ever..
..but i'll make it unforgettable.
cuz i know you dont have alotta fwens
and well, you can always count on me to be one.
monday,
its gonna be your birthday all over again!!
:)

we, seafieldians do it better than y'all :DD

2010-07-13T00:48:00.000-07:00

so yeah
last saturday was our carnival!!
and it was awesome!!
got to hang with desh and jovin after soooo long!
shan finally got a hot chick
raviena finally met HIM
20 bucks fell straight into my hands,
thanks to nirmal :D
i got to masuk "the club" for fwee..
and my class stall was a hit!!
but best of all,
i got to see that fucking bitch fall flat on her ass!!
damn that was awesome!!
thats wat u get for being a suck up, bitch!
haha..
basically, it was awesome.
dont believe me?
check it our urself.
i'll make you wish you were there!
dont u already?!
haha..

my naughty pet bro :)

my darling loving couzieee!!

listen up girls..
guys for sale!!
except the last one lah..
that one ask reka did booking all..
hehe.

nice unicorn, park!!
wheres the matching fairy!?

me and my babe
shan, why did you have to spoil this pic?!
haha
ciao :)

im not a trick you play, im wired a different way.

2010-07-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

the past few days sucked!!
quite GET A :(
phone kena rampas!
and and and
my daddy dun lemme go for nivedhan's dinner thing!!
so sad!!
i feel like my family is treating me differently!
gosh!
ever since last friday when i quit get a,
my life has changed a lot!
im not the same person i used to be.
im starting to go back to my standard 6 days..
haih..
i used to be so emo back then!!
always had that stupid plastic smile on..
..but ever since he came into my life,
that plastic smile actually became real!
as i grew in form 2,
everything became from bad to awesome.
until he left me..
i guess that kindda made me feel so bluek!
i didnt rweally give a shit after that lah.
dedicated my life to my fwens..
guys came and left..
..but fwens are forever, rite?!
i managed to get where i dreamed of being..
i got there with vishan's help :DD
by form 3, i did it lah!
and everything after that was perfect!!
i started tuition at get A..
that was the best move i made.
i got to know more people..
got more fwens..
life was perfect.
and then YOU came into my life.
i tot u'd be da same..
like all the other guys..
somehow, u're different.
you're everything i wanted!!
WITH BONUS FEATURES!
life was like heaven lah!!
UNTIL
i turned fifteen!
my grades dropped..
daddy canceled my b'day plans..
everything after that sucked lah.
i stopped get A cuz i had problems there..
im so depressed!
i loved that place!
it was da one place i cud go and juz be me :)
i felt like i belonged there.
when i quit, i felt like a part of me died.
after that, phone kena rampased..
parents found out about US!
*sob sob*
and after that..
i dunno lah..
i feel they're not treating me the same.
its a lot to go thru..
too much for one teenage gurl to handle.
now, even though im done with those crap,
i still am where i am..
RIGHT ON TOP.
but its worthless if you dun have happiness.
so yeah..
emo me?
*gulp*

owh! owh!
ninodku, dun forget our bet!!
when i win,
get me a teddy bear just like this one :p

foxy. flirty. and fifteen ♥

2010-06-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

i guess you kindda all know,
yesterday was my burfdae :)

you know,
in school moral was like da 1st subject.
didnt wanna give a shit.
so i slept off..
i woke up to my whole class surrounding me
wishing me happy birthday!
so sweet of you guys :)
after school,
my dear dear pet bro nivedhan dropped by.
how sweet!!

after he left,
i lepak at seafield walk with the stickman (dipan)
we gossiped and crap..
which reminds me,
divagar, you so owe me chocolate! :p

around1.45 my darling came by with my loving couzie and his fwens.
so you could guess what went down.
and OMG my dream came true!!
ninod, you're the best!
muaxx!

i stayed on till afternoon session recess.
noel, my thambi, was sweet enough to belanja me.
:PP

i was suppose to have this birthday thing on saturday with some buddies..
but daddy canceled it last minute
cuz my maths results wasnt so good this time around.
mummy felt sowie for me..
so she decided to throw me a party with the family.
i was upset..
didnt want it.
but mummy still went on with it.
but it was fun!!
all the crap we did..
all the cakes we threw around :p
here are the pics!
enjoy :)

my heart beats your name ♥

2010-06-23T00:38:00.000-07:00

TOP 5 MOST ROMANTIC THINGS A GUY COULD EVER DO:

5. If you are spending the night with her, just before she goes to sleep, tap her on the shoulder and tell her you love her, then give her soft romantic kiss, and hold her in your arms and cuddle.

4. As a special gift, name a Star after your partner. A number of astronomical agencies allow individuals to name stars and you receive formal documentation identifying the star that you have named.

3. Buy a erasable marker and write, " I love you" on her front windshield of her car. Also, put a paper towel under the windshield wiper so she can wipe it off.

2. Buy a packet of glow in the dark stars and stick the stars on the roof above your bed to spell out a message such as "I Love You" When the lights go down, your message will be revealed!

1. Next time it is raining really heavily, go for a walk with your partner. Forget the umbrellas and the raincoats. Run through the streets together, jump in puddles and get totally saturated.
Pick her up, twirl her around and kiss her while the rain falls. Taste the water
off her face and hold her close.

TOP 5 CUTEST GIFTS A GUY CAN GIVE:

5. Put love notes in her pockets when she isn't looking.

4. a flower.. doesnt have to be expensive. a simple one along the road would do.

3. a ring. but not just any ring. a cute, origami one.

2. a cut-out heart with a simple "i love you" on the back.

1. write her a song or a poem. go to her house, and throw pebbles at her window. when she opens her window and looks down at you, sing the song you wrote for her.

TOP 10 ROMANTIC THINGS TO SAY:

10. “You look beautiful.”
you said it to me thru the phone a couple of times. made me blush :)

9. “I miss you.”
i hear it from you everyday.. thru the phone, thru sms.. you're full of "i miss you" s.

8. “I can’t imagine life without you.”
when we have our special heart to hear talk, you say it. and i just totally surrender.

7. “You are worth waking up for.”
you text me every morning right after you wake up.. before we go to school.

6. “You are THE drug.”
my facebook status a few weeks ago. and i remember you asking for a cure (:

5. “I never knew what good I did to deserve you.”
you said: "god has given me an angel. i dunno how la.. but im happy i got you".

4. “It’s so damn easy to love you.”
even when im totally pissed with you, i can leave you. i love you too much!!

3. “Do you even realize how much you mean to me?”
i still remember the day we had our first boyfriend girlfriend fight. those words you said: "canesha, i love you canesha. you're my life. do u know how much i love you?". i couldnt stop crying on the other line.

2. “I’m yours.”
you'd ask me: "baby, can i have you forever?". and i'd answer: "forever and ever, babe. forever and ever". im yours. and you're mine.

1. “I love you.”
every morning when i wake up.. every night before i go to school.. everytime i talk to you thru the phone.. every second im with you.. thats all you can say. i love you too baby boy ♥

i'll hold you down TILL YOU'RE AMAZED.

2010-06-19T02:06:00.000-07:00

owh.
one more thing i almost forgot.
someone special's burfdae.

dharsheeeeee (:
happieee burfdaeee dude!
~15/06/10~

-this was the best pic available-

they laugh because im different, i laugh because they're the same.

2010-06-19T01:45:00.000-07:00

hello people.
i've been viewing blogskins after blogskins..
GOD i feel like dying!!
im dead bored at home!!
skipped tuition today!!
yey! :D
mummy has been so nice to me lately..
i dunno why.
maybe i did sumting wrong?
and and and
she wants me to not suspect she knows?
tomorrow is daddy's day.
poor daddy has been working all weekend!
some piling and stuff going on at his job site.

*sigh*

i guess daddy's lil gurl wont get to be with daddy.
*sob sob*
im planing to surprise him at his job site :D
maybe we could do lunch?
i could bring along my guitar!!
and play him the song i wrote for him
heeeeee (:

"you are the shining sun in my sky
you light up my whole life
without you i'd be lost
i cannot see and i wont know where to go
just like the moon holds the starts in place
you keep me fixed together
i dont know a lot of thing
but i know one thing is true...
...MY HERO IS YOU."

i love who i am.. and i dont care if you dont!

2010-06-17T01:50:00.000-07:00

so i think a few of you might have noticed..
"..." is bitching me!!
dude,
i dunno who u are and wat do u want..
but as far as i rememba,
i didnt do anything to anyone
so if u hate me for no reason at all,
you're just too fucked up!
if you thing im fucking up shit abt my life here,
ITS MY BLOG!
if you dont like me,
feel free to leave.
i dun need fucking ass holes like u in my life.
i live to please myself..
I DONT LIVE TO FUCKING PLEASE YOU!!
so bitch off, loser!!
juz cuz u dont have a bf as awesome as mine,
doesnt mean you cn bitch about him!
he may not be the hottest guy around,
but his heart is golden, UNLIKE YOURS!
so stick ur dick in someone else's blog!!
i dont need you fucking up my life!

pheeeew!!
relieved some serious stress there..
feel much better nw :P

-monday night karaoking-

2010-06-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

wadd up earthlings :)

i guess you can tell wat i did on monday night :p
if u're asking me why im updating abt it now...
its cuz im LAZY! (;

*RAWWW*

i think i'll juz photoblog about this :)
im lazy lahhhh!
*phffff*

see how close we are!
such loving couzieees!
cheh
:DD

too bad skans wasnt here..
he was at camp..
poor boy missed out on all the fun!
heeee :DD

shan is like emoly sesat!
haha XD

a beautiful duet by the beautiful anan...
...and the not so beautiful loshni!
hehe.. kidding!

question mark.

*muaxxx*

those four letters... do they really mean anything?

2010-06-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

LOVE
im starting to think more about it..
what is love?
its not abt da gifts you give her everytime u see her..
its not abt the sweet things u whisper in her ear..
its not abt all those kisses and huggiesss..

its abt the way he cries wen u leave him..
its abt the stupid things he does cuz he cant think straight without her..
its abt the fact that he'll never hate her, eventhough she hurt him beyond limits, cuz he just CANT.

i've always tot love was a "touch n go" case..
a guy walks into ur life..
..and leaves b4 u even realize he came in.
im like that.
im a sad "touch n go" case.
WHY?
dont we all have the same reason?
its cuz the 1st he decided he was fed up and left u wen u were ever so madly in love.

if its one thing i learnt..
everybody is a "touch n go" case..
UNTIL
they someday meet their true love..
how do u noe ur true love?
YOU DONT.
when u have every intention of playing her but not do it because u need her..
THATS WEN U KNOW..

i've seen cases worse than this..
i've been thru it all..
u name it, i've seen it..
so its only normal to expect the same..

but what if this time, its not da same?
do u rweally think someone can change?

i have a fwen..
shes been with "touch n go"s her whole life.
to think she'd get it by nw..
SHES STRONG ENUF TO BELIEVE SOMEONE WILL BE DIFFERENT.
i've seen her get hurt so many times.
i've seen cut marks all over her hand.
i've seen her attempt to kill herself in front of my eyes.

you might think shes stupid..
SHES NOT
shes in love..
i've never seen her go this crazy over just any guy..
this one was special.
he changed his whole life 4 her..
he stopped mixing with is jackass fwens..
he stopped smoking..
AND SO SHE TOT..

i was there..
everytime he flirted with another gurl..
everytime he talked to his fwens abt wat he did with her..
everytime he lit a cigarette..
BUT I DIDNT TELL HER!
she had so much of faith in him..
to know dat he only fooled her?!
it wud break her..

HE LEFT HER AND IS NOW WITH SOMEONE ELSE..
shes on drugs..
she tried to kill herself..
shes going crazy..
and as her fwen,
all i can do is talk to her..
take care of her..
listen to her..
BUT I CANT FILL THAT HOLE IN HER HEART.

if he only knew how much she needed him..
hes heartless!
most guys are..

EXCEPT YOU..
im "him" and you're "her" in my fwens case..
i have gold right in front of me..
but im blind..
im not gonna miss an awesum guy like you..
not like how he missed out on her.

BUT NOW,
THE QUESTION STILL REMAINS..
WHAT IS LOVE?
simple..
its the way you feel about me..
..and the way i feel about you.
♥

you smile, i smile :)

2010-06-06T02:51:00.001-07:00

went jean hunting with mummy today..
but well, you know me..
when it comes to shopping,
IM CRAZY!

i walked into this dress shop..
GOD it was colour coordinated!
:)
i picked out this awesum dress..
it was grey..
damn i fell in love with it
mummy said i could buy it
BUT
i had no size!
S was too small
and
M was too big
damn eff-ed up!
i wanna cry!
:(
so i guess i gotta loose some KGs
this holz, its so on!
im gonna loose weight
JUST so i can get into S!
eeeeek!

i managed to get a cute pair of jeans..
ROMP is my heaven!
but but but
I WANT THAT DRESS!
waaaaaa...!!
*sobs*
it's k..
ONE DAY
THAT DRESS WILL BE MINE!
:DD
you can count on that!

~do i make your heart beat like a native drum?

2010-06-06T01:52:00.000-07:00

today was VANISHA's burfdae..
shes finally a teen!
woots for u vani (:

so yeah there was a party down town..
lepaked there till about 6?
i even saw jovin :P

i have nothing more to say..
here are some pics from today
*points down*
~ENJOY~

lil miss cuttieee!

romeo (:

me and my loving couzieeee, shan <3

yes, we are LIFELESS! (:

happieeeee burfdaeeee
VANISHA

school's out... SCREAM AND SHOUT!!

2010-06-06T01:24:00.000-07:00

woots!
schools out!
yahooooo!
exams are finally over!
i can finally get a move on with my life :)
so yeah notice da drawings above?
those cute lil things were drawn by cheng!
as u can see..
exams like english, moral and sivik..
takes about 20 minutes to finish..
so wats da effing point of giving us 1 friggin hour?!
i can die wei waiting 4 time to end!
so we draw..
i mean cheng yi draws..
the rest of us SLEEP (:
so nyway,
today was da last day of skul..
went to ehsan with nivedhan anne and a few of his fwens..
came back around 2.30 and had the best sleep of my life!
around 6.30 i walked up to skul..
it was om's burfdae!
my tambi mahh..
muz wish!
so i walked up to the canteen..
afternoon session was having perhimpunan..
sum teacher was shouting:
"i dun wan yall to pour water on ur fwens all ahh.."
bla bla bla
wen skul FINALLY ended,
om spotted me..
he ran up to me..
"akka! damn nice i escape today.. i neva kena wet"
*i pulled out my bottle and splashed him good*
he was like: =.=
"haha.. come gimme a hug"
*huggieeeees*

so yeah..
happie burfdae om! :)

eww..
i hate dis crappy pic!
but its like da only one i have so yeah
:DD

-love is the most painful thing on earth-

2010-06-04T20:07:00.000-07:00

for all those times..
for all the memories..
for every second you made me feel whole...
and
for every second i feel empty now that you're gone..
i'll cry my lil eyes out
but i have to let you go.
my life has been so fucked up lately

if you care..
if you love me..
if my happiness means a thing to you,
you'll lemme go.

you know that i love you boy, hot as mexico ♥

2010-06-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

who am i?
i am an average gurl..
15 years old
and born on the 29th of june 1995

who are you?
you're a not so average guy..
17 years old
and born on september 23 1993

i am crazy..
RETARDED!
i love love love to talk talk talk!
i'm one of those noisy buggers at the back of the class every teacher wants to slap!
but at times, i can be that quite angel when everyone is going crazy..

you're funny..
HILARIOUS!
you're one of the jokers everyone loves to be around
but at the same time, you're that deep, emotional guy every gurl wants..

me?
im tall..
like annoying tall
the kindda tall that gets people going:
"woah.. you're only 15?!"

you?
you're thin..
you can fit anywhere, anytime.
the kinnda thin that makes me shout:
"vinod! make sure you eat"
haha..

i live in my own fairytale world..
i've been hurt enough to get my fwens worried wen i say im in a relationship
but im strong enough to bounce back fast..
..im the type of gurl that believes
my prince charming will some day pick me up on his white horse

you make fairytales..
you're sweet enough to make price charming look like a fool!
you're the type of guy any gurl would want to die with!
you dont juz sweep them off their feet,
you make them go crazy!
no white horse needed!

i play the guitar and write my own songs
most guys run away from me..
they're scared i'd write about them when they leave me.
i cant say its not true..
hehe

you have the voice of a GUY angel!
most gurls fall for you juz like that!
they're amazed with you're beautiful voice.
no one can say that's not true..
haha

what are we?
we are two different people
but somehow, we fit perfectly.
i guess opposites attract!

im nowhere near perfect...

...you're more perfect than you can be

im half epmty
i've always been that way..

..but you somehow always make me feel whole
you know no emptiness

us?!
together, we melt fire and freeze ice.
no one said black and white would match..
..but we make it work

im a young gurl with a rough childhood..

..you made the best of you're "kindergarten" days

but we both are making our present worth the ride (:
no matter how apart we are,
we have ONE thing in common..

I LOVE YOU...

...YOU LOVE ME

WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!

it has been officially one month.
i think that we both agree that one month is more than enough to want each other more!
heaven is no where near how this love feels!

I don't want the "perfect guy" to every other girl.
I want my perfect guy.
The one who is nowhere near perfect
And knows I'm not either,
But loves me anyways.

AND I THINK I FINALLY FOUND HIM!

you're name is written all over my hand (:

2010-05-27T22:15:00.000-07:00

i love u because:

1. u make me smile, even on my worst days..
2. u call me you're baby..
3. ur facebook display pic is a pic of MY hand with your name on it..
4. u call me EVERY NIGHT juz cuz you cant get thru tomorrow whithout hearing my voice..
5. u KISSED me thru the phone in front of all your friends, not caring what they say..
6. u text me EVERY MORNING before you go to school...
7. u have a million pics of me in your phone..
8. u're always open with me.. u tell me ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.. no secrets!
9. u make me feel whole when im actually empty..
10. u're you.. and nothing else..

just like the moon holds the stars in place, you keep me together (:

2010-05-18T23:29:00.000-07:00

GOSH!
its been sooooo long since i updated!
:P
well..
i guess nows a good time to start!
oooo.. oooooo....
lookiee at this pic i found (:
its one of my favs!
haha!

me and my loving couzieeee shan!! ♥

except he looks a bit gay here..
:S

so nyway,
i was looking thru my comp,
to find sum shot of me i cud upload..
till i found a pic of YOU!
like ewwwww!!
WHY THE FUCK do i still have pics of u?!
im sooooo deleting!
gahh!
life is sooo full of it!
one minute hes all over u..
..the next, hes walking around with sum other gurl.
and the worst part is...
...YOUR SO DAMN FREAKING HAWT!
-makes me cry even more-
*sobs*
but wateva la..
past is the past..
its a lesson to learn..
so for now,
i guess i'll stay true to whats written on my hand

♥

i hate that i love you, babe.

2010-04-14T00:45:00.000-07:00

OMMF!
u have made me "emo" so many times..
u told me lies..
u ignore me wen ur fwens are around..
u stood me up..
and u have fucked up my life..

BUT I STILL LOVE YOU!

i dunno why..
i love ur smile..
i go on9 everyday juz to stare at your photos..
i call you everynite juz to hear your charming voice..
and whenever i see you, my heart cant stop beating!!

as much as i want to end this and be fwee...

...i want US to last!

its like u have a curse over me..
but honestly,

why do i love you..

..eventhough i hate you?

he ate my heart.

2010-04-09T09:17:00.000-07:00

i know sumthing is up..
ur hiding smtg 4m me.
watever it is,
if wat they say is true,
i guess we'll be hitting rock bottom soon :(
bt im not gonna be the one who does it.
i wonder how u'll do it..
juz dun break me like vittal did.
good luck.

"gimme the bad news, baby now dun make me wait..."

shoes are a girl's best fwen!! ((:

2010-04-07T00:23:00.000-07:00

ok so last sunday i went to this international shoe exhibition ting..
at PWTC..
damn it was awesum!!
there were soooo many gorgeous SHOES!!
there were sales up to 50%..
and show shoes!
god
i've never seen anything like them..
take a look!
*points down*

made from snake skin!

a foot made out of shoes!
chun!

buttons!! :))

ooo-la-laaaa~~

horse much??

this one is my fav!!
awesum-ness!! ((;

punk!

this one has a bird on it!

this one has butterflies!
or are they dragonflies??
hmmm...

*pingggg*
sparkle sparkle~~

soooo puffy!!
me like

ooo..
chocolateeeee!!

there was oso this shoe decorating contest thing..
all da designs were displayed..
here r my favs! :))

omg!
lee yen wud sooo love this! ;)

these have peacocks on them!

these are da ones with da butterfly!
hehe.
:))

the more i try to feel, the less im whole..

2010-04-02T08:40:00.000-07:00

this week has been like any other week..
april fool's was yesterday..
no awesum prank 4m piri this year..
we all tak plan la..
so last minute last minute wan..
next year, sure us pranksters gonna tembak balik wei!
hahar.

today
we stayed back at school..
lepaked with a few fwens..
ooo ooo ooooo...
i ate the new "roti pisang coklat" thing 4 lunch..
it was niceeeeeee :))
i mean, everything's nice with chocolate! ♥
then me n mokky followed lee yen back home..
we got a lift from pn. wong..
then we walked to my grandma's hse to get my guitar..
dun ask me why my font suddenly diff..
i oso dunno why.. tiba-tiba ni
but i like it!
:P
so dun complain! xD
so yeah back to the story..
clarissa n cheng was suppose to meet us at lee lee's hse..
..after their CF love hurts thing..
but they never showed! ;(
u guys arrr!!
wait la..
wen i cum to school on monday,
yall gonna kena :P
well,
i gotta gooooo
daddy wants me to zZzZz..
chouzzz

♥ uʍop ǝpısdn ƃuıoƃ ǝɯ ʇoƃ s,ǝɥ

2010-03-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

so today was like IU!
its da 1st time im going..
and it was awesome!
as said, caprice was there!
he did like 3 songs!
ean, jin and natelie 4m hitz fm was oso there!
thats preety much all da VIPs dat came..
the performances were awesum!
there were bands,
pole dancing,
beat boxing!
the was wasnt too bad oso..
i mean, it was ok larr..
but other than dat, everything else was awesum!
there was a dancefloor after that..
haha..
carlos surfed the crowd!
dat was giler chun wei!!
:))
i pretty much hung out with..
rav, divya, noel and vish..
i ran into dipan a few times..
da fella kept kutuk-ing me!
he always treats me like a small kid!
haha! dats why i like kacau-ing him!
XD

"love me, love me, feel the flame..."

2010-03-27T01:56:00.000-07:00

so yeah
i guess you all heard wat happened to dharshi..
it was not a compass btw..
i dunno wat it was la..
but 100% NOT a compass.
hmm..
i wonder hw many stitches dharshiren wud get??
lol..

look at his BLOOD!
wakakaka...
dun ask me y i took a pic of it..
lee yen asked me to..
=.=
and if u are not a 3 Hormat-ian,
this is just the lil part of blood we 4got to clean up..
so u could imagine hw much blood there was!
giler a lot wei!
kesian dharshi..

anyway,
on thursday
me, rav, lee yen n cheng stayed back at skul 4 tugas
god!
we were dead bored!
i use to hate tugas-ing during morning session cuz go sooo much things to do
but nw we got NOTHING to do oso..

i made a heard out of RM1!
its 4 my baby!
bahaha!

ooo..
look!
lee yen is drawing!
*points down*

awesum wei!
damn nice!

this stupid girl dun wanna lemme take a pic of her!
why la rav? why!

who da hell took this pic?
i tell u
im never giving yall my phone la..

see ah..
cheng yi always very rajin!

so yeah..
dats kindda it..

on friday
i stayed back 4 eco rangers la..
b4 that i met up with an old fwen outside skul..
then i rushed 4 da meeting only to find out..
...THEY WERE PLAYING BASKETBALL
so i cabut la..
pergi makan!
then i ran into
om, prashanth, subaash, kaesyen and noel..
lepaked with them 4 a while la..
haha..
form 1s are so cute!
then after dat i went back to taman herba..
da meeting was there..
we planted trees..
*bluek*
came home and flopped straight on the bed!
zZzZz

well,
dat was kindda it..
went shopping 4 dresses today..
saw JJ and one of da finalist 4m da biggest loser asia..
i was lyk :O
weird much!?

there is no such thing as the perfect guy.. but a girl can dream, cant she?!

2010-03-26T03:17:00.001-07:00

so cheng yi's got me into this "list" thing..
i've decided to do one on my perfect guy..
so yeahh..
here it it..
:)

my dream guy wud have to be:

1. older or the same age..
2. you dont have to be taller than me, as long as you dont complain dat ur shorter
3. you gotta be cool with my fwens..
4. dont ask me to ponteng, cuz i wud soooo want to if u did!! but i dun wanna ponteng
5. you dont have to be all A's smart.. B's would do.. and a few C's wudn't hurt..
6. you gotta be sweet! like mushy sweet! like fairytale sweet!! (;
7. you dun have to buy me cool stuff.. hugs and home-made stuff are more than enough!!
8. if you wanna kiss me.. do it! dont ask me or plan it.. its nt special that way..
9. its ok if you're not cute.. as long as you are cute thru my eyes, no one else's opinion matters
10. dont get jealous when i hang out with my guy fwens.. instead, cum join us!
11. dont ignor me when u're with ur fwens.. include me.. even though i may feel left out, i like the fact that you remembered dat i was there..
12. you dun have to text me 24/7.. but i'd like it if u reply my messages..
13. if you feel like talking to me, call me.. dun always ask me to call u..
14. write me a song, poem, quote or watever and i'd remember it forever!
15. get to know me.. and dont ever 4get my birthday!
16. remember da day we got together.. we dun have to celebrate stupid "month-a-versary"s and stuff.. bt the lil things are important too..
17. its ok to be horny but dun over do it! i dun wanna noe what porn you watched..
18. dont dont DONT ask me 4 my bra size.. hw wud u feel if i asked u "hw long is ur dick?"
19. if you smoke, dont expect to kiss me! i HATE guys hu smoke.. ewww!
20. drinking is ok.. bt know ur limits..
21. dont force me to do sumting..
22. be honest with me.. if u dun like sumting, tell me.. dun cry to ur fwens abt it!
23. talk to me.. im not only ur gf, but ur best fwen as well.. i'll always be hear to listen.. and i wanna noe wats going on with u..
24. dun talk about ur ex! its ok to mention her, but dun tell hw hot n sexy she was.. i dun wanna noe!
25. i dun mind if other girls call u hot.. and i wud want u too tell me.. bt dun keep bragging abt it..
26. talk abt me to ur fwens.. juz dun talk abt hw "hot" i am..
27. NEVER EVER EVER flirt with other girls!
28. if another girl flirts with u, cum n tell me.. i wont bite..
29. dun talk abt ur fwen's love problems n say "i hope dats nt gonna happen to us".. im nt like your fwen's gf..
30. dun make me say "i love you" till im ready..
31. dun be shy to hold my hand and call me ur baby in public
32. be yourself.. dun try to change just to make me like u more.. if i didnt lyk u, i wudnt be with u in da 1st place..
33. i like guys who are matured yet childish at the same time..
34. make me laugh! i loveee to laugh!
35. tell me i look pretty even wen i look like shit!
36. wen im crying, calm me down.. talk to me.. bt dun force me to show u my face.. n if i do, wipe my tears away and say "there's dat beautiful gurl i wanted to see"
37. tell me you love me.. but that doesnt mean u have to shout it in public..
38. dont expect me to always look pretty.. i want a guy who thinks im hot in my sweaty school uniform, with my hair clipped up and sleeves rolled down.
39. its ok to be 5 or 10 minutes late.. but not more than that!
40. at the end of the day, a gurl wants a guy who loves her and adores her for who she is! love me for who i am, and dont expect me to change.

hard as i try, i know i cant quit.

2010-03-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

haih..
im doing geo project..
not yet start sejarah oso
:P
aiyooo..
tomolo got sejarah presentation..
i tell u 3.2 damn long wei!!
we all used like 5 or 6 majung paper 4 one effing sub topic..
giler!!
anyway
other than dat..
im oso facebooking
and listening to demi lovato songs..
so u cud imagine how my project is cmg along..
i dunno y but suddenly im addicted to demi lovato..
im hearing "here we go again" now..
i think i'll go for avril lavigne next..
all three albums baby..
plus a few singles
;)
if ur wondering..
im down to "until you're mine"
i kindda love dat song!!
"i can only hear your voice,
ringing through the noise"
lol..
anyway...
i so cant believe u want me back!
haha... u "MISS" me, doncha?
i guess i kindda saw it cmg..
but hey..
u shud have tot of dat b4 u did wat u did..
kesian kesian
oooo..
dharshi came on9!!
lets go chat with him!!
and im on "that's how you know" now btw..
and and and
is anyone going 4 IU this sunday??
GOD i dunno wat to wear!
shud have gone shopping with rav the other day..
heard she bought an awesum dress!!
now shoes....??
shud i go with flats or wedges??
hmmm...??
"two worlds collide" is so distracting my thinking right now..
but its an awesum song..
means a lot..
"i can survive,
with you by my side,
baby we'll be alright"
*bluek*
okok
my project is calling..
so is my guitar..
:P
hmmm...??
geo or strumming?
ermmm..
maybe just one song??
heh heh.
woots!
just did it!
feel awesum!
played replay by iyaz..
my version is a bit cacat la..
bt more towards vocal..
the music is still going on..
"get back"
dat was i think demi's first actual single?
waddeverrr..
i gotta get back to my project!
GOD
y must thr be sooo many distractions?!
gahh!!
oooo..
b4 i go..
help me decide:
drums or bass??
O.o
u noe me..
cant make up my mind
:D
so yeah..
im out..
"don't forget" my geo project..
as in its like playing nw..
"our love is like a song,
you cant forget it"
its a sign!
i shud not 4get my project!
byeeeee~~

i can see it going down.. going down.. in my head..

2010-03-21T00:26:00.000-07:00

OMG

help me!!
ok ok
so i was planing to change my blogskin..
and and and
i finally narrowed my decision to 2
but but but
i cant choose!!
if you're wondering wats up with the stuttering/stammering..
well, it may be because of last year's KWN video..
OR
i just like to..
YOU GOTTA PROBLEM WITH THAT??
lol
anywayz..
back to wats important..
help me choose!!!
Tik Tok
Innocence
eeek!!
lemme know which one u think is better ya..
comment in my cbox!!

i dunno why... i just miss you...

2010-03-19T09:03:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG!!
today was fun!!
i spent the day at geetasha's house..
and wen the both of us get together..
theres a room full of CRAZINESS!!
we fooled around..
joked to death!!
and and and
I PLAYED WITH OREO!!
i finally got to see geetasha's new dog...
OMG hes soooo cuteee!!
i tell u..
he was sumhow attracted to my slipper XD
he chased me all around for them..
i had to take them off in the end
and put them sumwhere high so he couldnt get them..
n then he started jumping on me cuz of my COLOURFUL t-shirt
GOD hes sooo cuteeee!!

look at how time flies!!

2010-03-18T02:02:00.000-07:00

awww..
look at us wen we were young...
how cute..
wanna see how we look like now??
we go from left to right, k..

my loving cousin..
..vishahan
blur-do dumbass fella..
hehe..
studying in form 4..
pure science..

sharvin!!
he's vishahan's bro...
19 if im not mistaken..
studying medicine in indon now..
gangster betul wei this fella when he was in sec skul..
now..??
dunno lah.

then comes meeeeee!!
followed by anan..
who is 18 this year..
studying law in Brickfields Asia College.
he's an awesum guy to shop with!
hehe!

skantha skantha skantha..
anan's bro..
the youngest of us all..
hes 15 la..
but im still older by months!!
hehe..

my PMR buddy!!

im just a little bit caught in the middle...

2010-03-16T06:30:00.001-07:00

so lemme update yall on life..
KWN has started this year..
our skul is sending 4 groups this year..
our 4 directors are:
~pikky (she'll be leading the "harapan" group)
~kaemen (kaelan's bro)
~avhinash (naveen sri kantha's bro)
and im not sure who da forth one is..
scripts have to be passed up by the 25th..
themes are ecology and communication..
-same as last year-
so gud luck people!
and and and..
i wanna see da script b4 its done..!!
*eeek!*
moving on..
PROJECTS!
~sejarah
~geografi
~seni
the sejarah one i pakating with my dear couzie 4m PJ so woots for me!! LOL
the geo one..
still in the process of starting..
and the seni one crap la..
just crap sum shit n hantar only la..
next..
my cousin is down from singapore..
oh the joy!
now i gotta spend the rest of my holz with a bratty 6 year old..
LOL
i love him.. i do..
its just that..
he keeps pulling my hair if u noe wat i mean..
KIDS!!
argh..!!
good thing is..
my exam marks are good..
..SO FAR
except BM la..
bt my parents dun noe i got it back yet so..
..wat they dont know wont hurt, rite??
heh.. heh.. heee??
they're not bugging me to study so much..
and thats gud..
:)
but my annoying sister..
still annoys me..
with her stupid "my marks r better"-ness
and her goody-two-shoe F chord-ness..
gahh!!
im getting sick!
its been like a month kot?
and i still cant play da F chord!
most of the songs require F chord!
i tell u..
if only they had a U and K chord..
then once i finally achieved the F chord,
i'd play it along with the U, C, K chord and rub it in my sis's face!
too bad such chords dun exist..
ok, now i just sound lame..

there she lies... untogether...

2010-03-16T05:55:00.001-07:00

hmm...
doncha think its weird how some songs just fit exactly into sumthing we're going thru..
or how we feel at a certain moment..

like the feelings i had for that "german dude"...
-teardrops on my guitar, taylor swift-

and what i thought wen "chicken little" left me..
-baby, justin bieber-

and a song that describes everything when i was in love with my "edward cullen"
-ultimate,linsay lohan-
-lucky, jason maraz ft. colby callet-

and how i felt about "romeo"..
-my best friend's hot, dollrots-

and when i met da "DJ guy"...
-i fell in love with the DJ, chennel-

or how i felt while i was with vicky..
-unfaithful, rihanna-

and how i feel about my dream guy..
-automatic, tokio hotel-

i guess hearing songs that have meaning to your life is kindda nice sumtimes..
anyway..
im runing out of stuff to post so blah!!
lemme tell u wad i did today..
went out wit mokky, gip, the korean and kah wai..
so sad clar and dharshi couldnt cum..
we watched alice in wonderland..
it was ok larr..
the way they created the wonderland was awesome la..
tim burton mah..
but movie was boring abit..
well..
me hungry edi..
chouzzz..

just get back up when it knocks you down..

2010-03-10T07:21:00.000-08:00

life..
has been better..
getting used to the worse so..
its like watever to me now..
exam marks are ok la..
still need to improve..
but still ok..
damn la..
so many projects worr..
summore KWN has started edi this year..
eeek!!
im doing a script la..
summore muz do by friday..
only 3 days wei!
gahh...!!
anyway,
lot of people hate me 4 wat i did to vicky..
damn fuck la..
i HATE going to tuition.
summore today mummy caught me talking to sum form 5 guy..
luckily, she never scold..
:)
anyway,
avril lavigne's new song rocks!!!
-the words la-
the way she sings it sucks!
but the song inspires me..
my world juz went thru world war 2..
its time to fix everything back together again..
haih..
that's life

"I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry.. I'll get by"

-alice, by avril lavigne

the truth makes everything else look like a lie..

2010-03-07T03:19:00.000-08:00

ok everyone..
its my 100th post..
wohoo 4 me..
LOL
i bet no one cares oso

so anyway,
i feel so.. "bluek"
i mean,
wen i broke up with vittal,
i tot dat all guys suck..
they only love u at first..
and once they get bored
THEY MOVE ON
and leave us broken hearted
i was young..
and i wanted true love..
and well..
no matter how much u think its true..
all love at this age is PUPPY LOVE
so wen i was with vicky
i was so sure it was puppy love..
i didnt want to be so in love with someone
and then cry my eyes out wen they leave me..
so i didnt want to take love seriously..
but then vicky came along..
he was a rweally nice guy
its juz dat hes serious wen it comes to love
and well..
it was already set in my mind dat i dunno wanna be serious in love now
so i guess u noe y this relationship ended so fast..
i mean any gal wud be lucky to have a guy like vicky..
so caring.. so cute.. so understanding?
and i dun deserve a guy like dat..
so i think im gonna stay away from love rite now..
flirt around with sum guys
;)
yeah i noe i sound so...
but rite now
its all about PMR n my fwens!
but obviously, i dunno who to trust now..
because sum people only think of themselves!
and use people 4 they're own gain!
as u all know,
life has been pretty rough these past week..
and though i have lost a few fwens..
i have also gained sum..
and well, everything is getting better..
i can finally see the sun shine thru those rain clouds..
*
vicky,
i noe dat sum day, u'll find a gal who loves u da way u love her..
someone who deserves u and ur heart..
cuz i dun deserve a guy as golden as you..
*
dashya,
you seriously hurt me a lot..
you used me!
dun you feel guilty in any way?
do u even have feelings?
well, i cant belif u need to "use" people to get wat u want
cuz u noe u cnt do it urself bcuz ur so lame n useless..
and without ur "fwens" behind ur back
u'll seriously be a lazy, lonely NOBODY!

what i did during da CNY holz!

2010-02-20T02:30:00.000-08:00

insted of telling you wat i did during da holz

i'll show u..

went to terengganu

lepak-ed with my couzies in pyramid..

i was in pyramid like almost everday..

and i saw vittal there too like one day

and i ran away as soon as i saw him..

GOD

i hope he didnt see me

also

got

new

electric

guitar!!

well,

its not rweally new la

its my cousin's old one

he bot a new one

so he gave me his old one

but its as good as new!

~awesome~

you and me can write a bad romance

2010-02-17T07:12:00.000-08:00

wassup people..

i know i havent been updating lately..

so i'll make it up to u..

..by typing a seriously LOOOONG post!!

*tehee*

so last saturday nite..

13th, if im not mistaken..

was my dear couzie's burfday!!

MY CHELLEM!!

(thats darling in tamil la)

went for the party..

it ended around 10..

after that, everybody came over to my house..

-well, alomost everybody-

we were lepaking and hanging around and gossiping!

UNTIL

skantha got hungry!!

so we bugged our parents to let us go to da mamak shop near my house..

and they did..

..so we went "mamak-ing"..

at 1.30 am!!

so my eldest cousin drove us there..

BUT

wen we reached the shop

the guy told us they were closing..

how stupid!

a 24 hour shop closing at 1.30?!

so anyway,

we were walking back to the car

WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN...

*plak*

sumting flies in front of my face n drops on the ground

so we all crowded around the "thing"

it was a PHONE..

suddently sum guy comes up to us,

smiling away,

and picks up his phone..

but seriously?

SMILING??

its like he wanted to say..

..." oops, im sowie.. i dropped my phone... waaaaay over there... in the middle of the road"

anyway,

he walks back to his table..

and theres this gurl

all upset

and crying

CONCLUSION:

that gurl was his girlfwen

and she juz found out that her boyfwen was cheating on her

cuz she read the sms-es on his phone

and now,

shes upset..

POOR GURL!!

yeah so anyway..

thats kindda it..

we went to sum other mamak shop near my house

and ate there

THE END!

-bUy FroM eCO raNgeRS-

2010-02-06T08:45:00.000-08:00

wassup people..

so as you all know..

VALENTINE'S DAY is coming up!!

and im helping eco rangers la..

so watever it is..

..BUY FROM ECO RANGERS!!

*points down*

anyway..

i lazy wanna write la..

*bluek*

CHOUZZZ

;)

"Listen to yourself, you're a hot mess..."

2010-01-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

hey guys!!

ok so i've been keeping track..

...and...

IM ALMOST AT MY 100th POST!!

woots!

this is officially my 95th post

so yeah..

wen i reach my 100th..

..I'LL CELEBRATE!!

by changing my blogskin

so if u guys see any blog skins that are my type..

i mean like u noe..

..my kind of blog skin

let me know ya..

;)

annual dinner pics (:

2010-01-23T23:12:00.000-08:00

some biatch told me to upload da pics from my dad's annual dinner..

..so i did it!

*bluek*

all for that BITCH!

i must really like her

wateva..

enjoy!!

my sis

see that girl at the back?!

thats stefan's sister..

damn cute, rite??

all thecrap on my left hand..

if u tink dats too much,

wait till u see my right hand

LOL

now, the part you've been waiting for..

THE MJ VIDEO!

tadaaa...!!

chun huh?!

i noe its lame

but if you're a major MJ fan

you'll love it

wateva..

~the bauer annual dinner 2010~

2010-01-23T07:20:00.000-08:00

hey people!!
yesterday, i went for MY DAD'S COMPANY'S ANNUAL DINNER
this year, it was at Sunway Lagoon Hotel Resort..
(same as last year)
and it was AWESOME!!
i had loadssss of fun!
the theme was BLACK AND WHITE
which was classic..
i wore a white dress
black coat and shoes
and net stockings!!
with loadsss of
*bLiNg*
as i suspected, stefan domanski was there..
we r fwens now so i wasnt too lonely during the dinner..
we were sitting on the same table with our sibs..
but watever..
ANYWAY
there was this guy
who mimic-ed MJ
he was like dancing and singing to sum MJ song..
and GOD he was great!
i mean i video-ed it
and if u didnt noe, u wud think its really MJ!
there was oso this lady..
damn, she was gay!
i mean honestly!
she looked like a man!
and she was dead HORNY!
she asked this guy to put his hands on her "....."
like ewww...!!
summore she was dancing and singing surrangani..
yes, im serious!
with da guys hands on her "....."
talk about gross!
anyway,
forget about that..
lets get to da real deal
stefan noes how to play da drums..
i mean, he came on stage and played..
TOTAL AWESOMENESS!!
hes really good
:)
then, da band called a few people to come on stage and sing n dance
as expected, my dad was one of them..
but he didnt go
he send me n my sis insted!
i tell u..
so last minute..
so *bluek*
in the end,
my sis grabbed the band's electric guitar
and i sang..
we did "cry" by the veronicas
and once we were done,
sum guys came on stage n gave me flowers..
i was like
:O
-.-
WTH?!
then, we were about to get off the stage
when everyone asked 4 an encore

so we did a tamil song..

that was awesome

i mean all the indian fellas went crazy..

haha

it was damn fun..

being up there on stage

anyway, next time,

i'll be da one with da guitar..

..jamming next to stefan!

haha!

;)

well,

that was kindda it..

went back home after that..

nothing else to say..

said too much d..

bye bye people!

me and my fucking life.. yes, i know it sucks!

2010-01-16T03:03:00.000-08:00

nothing much to say

stupid freaking flu/fever is STILL here!

waaa...!!

mum says maybe need to go 4 blood test

O.O

cuz it may be SERIOUS!!
cud be denggi..

got lot in the area nowdays..

-according to doctor-

eeek!

anyway,

gotta run

the "family" is cuming over..

GOD

theres been a lot of family gatherings these past few weeks

but im not complaining!

so as i was saying..

chouzzzz..!!

-quick post-

*im in some serious shit! shoud have NEVER became a part of this.. but wat to do? once ur in, ur in 4 life.. theres no backing out now..

*sigh*

my loving cousin's sweet 16

2010-01-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

ok so last friday was my loving cousin's

SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY!!

his mum had a surprise party for him..

basically, it was loadssss of fun!!

here are sum pics from the party..

..enjoy!!

dance floor..!!

[ but trust me, the music was LAME! ]

this is wat happens when immature 16 year olds play with

SNOW SPRAY!!

yummy!!

*i was da 1st to taste da cake u noe..

the idiots lepaking outside..

woah..!!

who are those three..

..SUCK-AIS?!

haha..

stupid hand ruined the shot

LOL

you wanna noe sumthing?

vishahan ALWAYS looks to the side when he takes a pic

WHY?!?

cuz he looks "nicer"

-.-

MF, rite?

fu yoh..

romeo damn strong la//

me n my loving cousin!

we're seriously close..

the guy in da middle looks like hes on drugs, doesnt he?!

this was the last picture taken that night..

all of us look damn sweaty wei~~

our last hours of 2009!!

2010-01-01T02:30:00.000-08:00

happy new year people!!

its 2010!!

finally!!

woot woot!

i dunno about u guys

but i was living my last minutes of 2009 to da max!

well, my new year's resolution..

..is to get 7 As in PMR, baby!!

anyway, here are some pics

of my last hours of 2009!!

enjoy =)

awww.. isnt he soooo cuteeee ^^

sanjay's bro, dave.. watcha doing with da fon, huh!

heyraj!! my annoying but cute cousin from singapore

romeo himself, sanjay.. cheh..

weird much

zombie and me..

cheh kidding la

me and my loving cousin!! <3

awwww... damn cuteeeeeee!!

my monkey's birthday!! lol

2009-12-27T23:33:00.001-08:00

hey.. so i promised yall i'd photoblog my sis's birthday..

well, b4 i start, let me tell u wat i did

most of my sis's close fwens were not around 4 her bday la

so she dun wanna have a party

but i felt sowie 4 her

so me n y cousin pakat plan surprise party 4 her

in the morning, she went out la..

so me n my cousin so semangat wanna do cake 4 her

v planed to do a guitar cake

it tuk us 5 hours wei!!

u dunno wat v had to go thru, man!

after that, v got ready n went to taipan

(the party was in pizza hut la)

b4 dat, v bot another cake juz incase..

hehe

our cake!! btw, dats my cousin that helped me out..

tadaaaa...!!

after that, v went to pizza hut

decorated da place

n waited 4 everone to cum

GOD yovisha was damn surprised

look at vishan in da back! haha.. funny..

honestly, i DIDNT want to call the "old" people.. but my mum forced me to so watever..

the cool table.. haha// boy, i look weird!

the not-so-cool table.. haha.. no la.. jk jk..

well, dats about it..

merry christmas!!

2009-12-24T08:29:00.000-08:00

hey guys..

sowie..

havent been updating lately

was busy..

n lazy..

well, i promise u i'll photoblog bout yovi's bday soon!

and my singapore trip..

and "the cousin's outing 09"..

promise!

anyway,

for christmas,

i wrote this horny funny story

in da TRG blog..

so for those of yall who wanna read..

go to da TRG blog...

http://theretardgang.blogspot.com/

btw, here is sumthing u need to noe b4 reading da story..

sugar:dashya

coco: canny (me)

bunny: clarissa

june: pui yeng

cookie: cheng

miki: lee yen

so yeah..

go read!!

its funny!

;)

btw, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

monkeys have birthdays too, u know!!

2009-12-11T08:41:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to my monkey..

congrats...

you're no more a kid

you're finally a teen...

woot woot

watever..

i'll give yall an update on wat went down today..

...WEN I FEEL LIKE IT!

hot as ice, cool as fire.

2009-12-09T01:25:00.000-08:00

hey guys!

ok, i think its obvious that i changed my blog skin

now, its black and white

ITS EMO!!

now, let me tell u its meaning

black..

it represents lies

white..

it represents the truth

so yeah...

you get it

i cant really explain it

but if u try hard enough,

you'll understand it.

anyway,

yesterday i went to watch a movie with yovi n masi aunty

and damn..

we paid for the tickets and popcorn...

...IN COINS!

seriously!

you see, my dad has his HUGE piggy bank

FILLED WITH COINS ONLY

so yeah i asked him if i could get some coins for this

n he gave

so yeah...

tickets was RM 21

popcorn was RM 7

paid all in 20 sen and 10 sen coins!!
haha

you should have seen da guy's face wei!

damn funny!

anyway

my sis took video

so i'll upload it someday

-we're like honey on candy together-

2009-12-04T05:14:00.000-08:00

hey people...

holidays are dead boring

as usual,

stay at home

eat, sleep, online

good news is...

...my dear "masi" aunty is here with me!

ok, shes my dad's 1st cousin

but shes only 20..

yet she comes down to my level

-if u noe wat i mean-

i call her aunty juz to annoy her

cuz she dun like me calling her aunty

makes her feel old

so she told me to call her "masi"

which is actually aunty in punjabi

why?!

bcuz no one noes "masi" is aunty

(unless ur punjabi)

so ppl will think its her name

so bcuz of dat

i call her masi aunty

i noe its like aunty aunty
but its two times more annoying!

haha..

well anyway

things have been much better

i can finally smileeeee again!

and forget about "that guy"

yey me!!

cheh

ok ok

gotta run now

byeeeeeee~~

who needs prince charming when you have edward cullen?!

2009-11-30T23:59:00.000-08:00

"The funniest thing about this message is that by the time you realize it doesn't say anything, its too late for you to stop reading it!"

wassup people

yesterday,

i went to watch...

and OMG both rob pat n taylor launtner looked damn effing hot!

taylor launter makes hot even hotter...

...but robert pattinson takes dreamy and sexy to a whole new level!

ITS

WOLVES

VAMPIRES

whose side are you on??

_*_*_*_

ok, enough about hot guys, yesterday i had holiday tugas at the library.. damn, the library was redecorated. LIKE SERIOUSLY! the bahagian bertanda merah was moved to the bilik sal.. and all the rujukan books were rearranged at the ex-bahagian bertanda merah place.. so we had to like put back all the books in their respected places.. damn, it was dusty! hell dusty! anyway, after we were done for the day, i went back to my grandma's house.. at around 3.45, rav n divya picked me up and we all went to summit to watch new moon! pity dharshi, he was da only guys there XD but before we watched da movie, i (being a total dumbass) needed to buy credit cuz i wasted all of mine toking to "somebody" last night! anyway, we went to shop after shop asking for maxis reload but OMG every freaking shop didnt have! damn MF wei! we went to like 5 diff shops n finally, juz as we lost hope, we went to this digi shop.. and OMG we finally managed to get it! AT A DIGI SHOP SUMMORE! -.- i noe rite?!

~so watever.. today, i had holiday tugas as well.. we did paper work today.. we listed down all the rujukan books that were gonna be thrown away (cuz they were old, salah format and falling apart) damn, it was dusty again! not as dusty as yesterday but still!! damn! after that, i went to collect my report card! dang dang dang! D: collected my sis's one too, which made mine look like shit! i oso collected my sis's form 2 textbooks since she couldnt come to school.. damn, just as i tot i was getting rid of those form 2 textbooks and i'll never have to see (or carry) them again, i had to collect them, look at them and carry them.. well yeah, thats kindda it for today.. got a date with my books... chouzzz!!

two is better than one!

2009-11-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

yey!!

im done with the card!

-well, the outside at least-

yup, so check it out..

..this is the best i can do over night!

yeah..

they're twins..

so i deciced to do two cards that can be joined together

like a jig saw puzzel?

two is better than one, rite??

love,

-the girl with a broken heart-

...sorry i wasnt perfect through your eyes, babe.

but you were never perfect through mine either...

if you want me, you can watch me on your video phone.

2009-11-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

ok so have yall heard da new one by beyonce ft. lady gaga?

its called video phone

damn it rocks!

its like a combination of beyonce and gaga

i mean, its sexy yet catchy n techno

you gotta hear it to understand me..

so check it out ya!

*points down*

run, dont walk! the sky is falling through..

2009-11-25T03:31:00.000-08:00

SHIT!

why am i so shitty?!

GOD for once in my life

i WISH i could something done on time..

as in NOT SO LAST MINUTE!

every fucking thing i do

is ALWAYS last minute!

i always tell myself

"im not gonna do this last minute again"

but i end up doing it last minute anyway..

FUCK LA!!

the twinnies birthday is like on the 3rd..

and they're all da way in aussie!!

i have to post their card!

i should have posted it yesterday

but no...

...i had to put it off till last minute!

and just as im gonna get started on it,

THE PRINTER BREAKS DOWN!

why?!?!?!

damn fuck weii~~

ish..
now i have to use da printer in my mum's college..

..but its a black n white printer!

NO COLOUR, NO FUN!

aiyoooo...

and da worse part is..

...im stil not done with their card!!

shit la!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!

mf mf mf mf

damn damn damn

im such a fuck-tard!

i have even tot of wat im gonna write inside!!!!!!

waaa...!!

ok ok

i better run and finish the card!

chouzz...

international heart break day

2009-11-23T00:10:00.000-08:00

According to you

I'm stupid,

I'm useless,

I can't do anything right.

According to you

I'm difficult,

hard to please,

forever changing my mind.

*_*_*_*

But according to him

I'm beautiful,

incredible,

he can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny,

irresistible,

everything he ever wanted.

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you.

*_*_*_*

I need to feel appreciated,

like I'm not hated.

Why can't you see me through his eyes?

*_*_*_*

But according to me you're stupid,

you're useless,

you can't do anything right.

-according to you, orianthi

sorry im not perfect through your eyes, babe.

but you were never perfect through mine either...

hey guys.. life has been the same.. well, today is international heart break day.. the day we all celebrate broken hearts?! well, i wish i could say im happy now, but i cant lie to myself. im better than i was last week, but the scares on my heart havent fully healed yet... infact, i still remember the words you said to me when we broke up..

".. IF YOU WANT A BOYFRIEND, LOOSE THE PIMPLES!!"

yeah, well, that really hurt!! but what to do.. thats life, rite? anyway, to all you girls who had your heart ripped out and torn to a million pieces, theres no point in crying.. CUZ NO MAN IS WORTH YOUR TEARS!! and when you find someone who is, he'll NEVER make you cry!! forget about the guy who left you for some other bitch.. one day, you'll find someone who'll love you for who you are... and you'll forget the guy who called you an over dramatic, pimple face, ugly freak!! sorry.. got carried away there.. well, anyway, you can tell that im still a little broken inside.. but i am on the road to recovery!! another day, another step!! yeah, im getting through this with the help of my dear friends!! and theres this song that really makes me feel better.. its called according to you by orianthi.. its playing on the music box i have sumwhere in my blog.. well, b4 i start toking about how crappy my life is, im gonna cabut... byeeee~~

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL HEART BREAK DAY!!

IF OUR HEARTS GET BROKEN,

WE'LL CELEBRATE IT TOGETHER!!

CUZ GUYS COME AND GO...

...BUT FRIENDS ARE FOREVER!!

kiss the rain ♥

2009-11-21T02:20:00.000-08:00

hey people...

today was like THE MOST BORING DAY IN THE HISTORY OF BORING DAYS!

*sigh*

have been online since 3.oo pm..

GOD i dunno what to do..

i started doing research on tourette syndrome

-trust me, i'll be useful next year-

visited site after site

watched video after video

but i still havent got all the information i need!!

so, back to the books i guess..

hmm..

its raining right now..

GOD i would give ANYTHING to play in the rain..

to run around,

scream and shout,

dance and sing,

and just go wild...

like a small kid!!

i mean, i never got to do those things as a child..

..so i guess, what we never had, we want!

like when i was a kid..

..GOD i was a FAT little girl..

..and my mum never used to let me eat ice-cream!!

maybe thats why i loveeee ice-cream!!

just as much as i loveeee the rain?!

LOL

well, if you'll excuse me,

i have a very important date with the rain!!

-it cant be rescheduled, you know-

what is juliet suppose to do if romeo is in love with someone else?

2009-11-19T22:04:00.000-08:00

haih...

life is not complicating...

its love that makes it complicated!!

romeo, romeo, cant you see that juliet is perfect for you?!

i mean, if romeo calls juliet his teddy bear, shouldnt he love her?

why love someone else??

haha.. yes!! i finally found it!! THE INTERNET MODEM!! my parents best kept secret hiding place.. IN THE FUCKING DRAWER IN THEIR BEDSIDE TABLE!! i tell you, i feel like an idiot, u know that?! haih, my sis knew all along!! i mean, my parents told her!! WHY?? cuz she's da trusted child.. the little gooddie two shoes daughter every parent wants, and every older sister hates!! GOD!! ok ok, lets not let one small thing spoil my day.. i mean, hell yeah i can use da internet when ever i want now!! ~as long as my sis is not at home la..