wassup..
canesha in da hiz-house..
ok, dats just pure lame la..
seriously, it should be against da law to be this lame..
ok, now im just plain stupid for calling myself lame on my own blog!!
great!! im losing it!!
you know what?
im just gonna shut up now...
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anyway,
i was thinking of relinking
cuz i just wanna forget everything!!

i mean, this blog has all my feelings while i was with him

and now that its over

i just wanna forget him

but hey

your past makes you a better person, rite??

i mean, we made a lot of mistakes in the past

and if we forget our past,

we forget all our mistakes we've done

and we'll make the same ones again in the future..

so yeah

i wanna hold on to my past

because i've made a mistake...

i hated a person so much without even hearing his full story

and that was really wrong

i mean, he tried to protect me...

and how do i thank him??

by calling him names and cursing him on my blog

ok, i bet yall know who im talking about..

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when we broke up

he said he lied about everything

so i tot he played me

but he didnt!!

he is not a playboy!!

yesterday,

i found out that he lied to protect me..

i mean, if you wanna know the full story, u gotta cum to skul on tuesday..

but it was really sweet of him..

i mean, yeah he did say those mean stuff to me..

but come on..

maybe he was just really angry and he couldnt take it anymore..

i mean, we all say mean stuff we dont really mean when we're angry..

and once we're sober, we regret it

we wish we could take it all back..

and he did apologize to me for saying those mean stuff..

and now, i feel like a dumbass..

i mean, i was a bitch towards him..

like a total slut..

and there is no way he is gonna forgive me!!

i mean, i wouldnt too if i were him..

i feel so guilty!!

i couldnt sleep at all last night till about 4.30 am..

i cant even eat..

the guilt is killing me!!

im so damn sorry!!

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anyway,

clarissa and cheng yi

can yall delete whatever you guys wrote about him in ur blogs

please!!

i mean, he doesnt deserve to be in ur hall of shame...

he is a really nice guy!!

and i feel bad reading those posts about him!!

yeah.. so.. well..

thats it then..

and btw to all of you reading my blog,